Saturday, August 29, 2009

An Odd Saturday Morning

So I couldn't really sleep in this morning. That's the way it always is on Saturdays but you can bet Monday - Friday I would love to snooze til 9 or 10! Anyway, I get up and stumble around. Ginger, my black lab, was laying at the foot of our bed cutting off the circulation to David's legs and I went I got she followed me. About that time I quickly remeber that she has got to go to the vet for a urinalysis becasue of some medicine she takes. They had mentioned that they may have to extract it if she would go while we were there. I was afraid she wouldn't so I sen d David outside to follow her for her morning potty. Weird, I know. I was just trying to save her from some weird "extraction" process. So I fumble around in the pantry and find a clean but empty recycled sour cream container. That was the vessel of choice. Success! Ginger did what he needed to do and we got what we needed! That's an odd way to start a Saturday, don't you think? Catching doggie dribble in a recycled container?

Then she had a visitor while we were out there. Our yard is fenced in and a little neighbor dog came to see her and she didn't even bark. That's even more weird because she barks at children 15 miles away! :)

The third weird thing about this Saturday morning is that I am eating chips for breakfast. This is actually my buddy Gavin's fault. He probably has no idea that years ago when we worked together he brought in these chips one day that would begin a multi-year addiction to them. They are Lay's Kettle Cooked Mesquite Barbeque Extra Crunchy Potato Chips! I am not a huge chip person but I have loved these since the day I met them. Thanks for introducing me Gavin! :) I think Elizabeth and I ate your whole bag so I should apologize for that. Sorry! ")

So it's early...not even 10 am. What other oddities will follow me through this day?

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

There's gotta be something else...

(Long sigh.) There has got to be something else I can write about on this blog besides the long, roller coaster ride of waiting for placement - but what?! I need an idea! I am sad about waiting. I am anxious about waiting. I am tired of being sad and anxious about waiting!!!! I want to share my thoughts and have an outlet to express frustration but at the same time I want something else "to say." Is my life that boring? I need some inspiration? be continued!

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Priceless experience

David and I were so fortunate to get to go last night and visit our friends who just had a baby. He was perfect in every way which was a blessing because he arrived several weeks early. The proud parents were beaming and glowing! We are delighted for them and so happy that we got to soak up part of their moment. I could not be more thrilled for them! They are wonderful people and now they are on their way to a beautiful family. They are just genuine, real people and they have received a wonderful treasure from God. Holding their newborn son was such a joy for me and I have to admit a heartbreak.

Sometimes I shy away from showers and births and the like because it is difficult. On the other hand, "they" are your friends and you want to be part of their life and share in their joy. We just love these guys too much not to go and see them but boy, is my heart sick?! But I am SO GLAD I went! Their son is precious! What an indescribable gift?!

David and I have almost hit the one year of waiting mark and each day that passes is twice as hard as the one before. Some days it seems like our call has to come soon. But most days it seems like a small possibility that it will ever happen. I knew the wait would be difficult but for some reason I thought we wouldn't have to wait so long.

Most days I am beyond frustrated. I can't seem to find anything to do to pass the time away and so few people understand this experience that it's hard to find people to relate to. I actually am at the point where I get mad at God many days. I feel ignored no matter how many verses I try to focus on. We are at a cross roads trying to decide to if this is God's plan for us. What a terribly difficult decision....

Saturday, August 15, 2009

What to do today?

I was so looking forward to sleeping in on this bright and shiny Saturday but I was up with the sun! Why is it that most days I can't pry my eyes open but on Saturday's I wake right up? It's a mystery to me!

So I caught up with my email, facebook and my blog buddies this morning and I have the whole day in front of me! So what to do? Should I go shopping? Go to a movie? Read one of the three new books I purchased? Be lazy? Make cookies? It's all up in the air! I think I shuld make some lunch first. I am getting hungry!